Not if I See You First by Eric Lindstrom
Don't deceive me. Ever. Especially using my blindness. Especially in public.
Don't help me unless I ask. Otherwise you're just getting in my way or bothering me.
Don't be weird. Seriously, other than having my eyes closed all the time, I'm just like you only smarter.
Parker Grant doesn't need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That's why she created the Rules: Don't treat her any differently just because she's blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.
When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there's only one way to react-shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that's right, her eyes don't work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn't cried since her dad's death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened--both with Scott, and her dad--the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.
Publishes in US: December 1st 2015 by Poppy
Genre: ya contemp disabilities
Source: earc little brown via netgalley
Disclaimer: I received this book as an ARC (advanced review copy). I am not paid for this review, and my opinions in this review are mine, and are not effected by the book being free.
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I really like the main character she was strong and funny and witty and she really handled her blindness in a way that I admired and hoped that I would have the strength to. two high schools merged as a part of this book and there's a lot of new people that she is encountering she does it with this nonchalantness know that I really like and basically she's just a girl you don't want to mess with.
She just lost her father and she's dealing with the grief of that and also the challenges that you face whenever you I have a physical disability. she still doesn't let the new people get to. there's a jock that's messing around with her and shes awesome about it she called him a douchebag and then she says well that's kind of mean so I'll just call you D.B.
I want to read not if I see you first because I'm drawn to books about disabilities and blindness is one of the things that has always particularly interest me so I was glad when I got an advance copy to read.
Parker is the main character and she lost her sight in an accident where her mom had drink too much wine and they got into a car accident. her mom died and Parker lost her sight. after that she got really close with her dad and I love the description of that relationship between them how protective he was of her and the openess they had talking to each other. unfortunately her dad passed away as well and this has Parker in a really crappy position.
Her aunt and cousins came to live with her because it's really hard for a blind person to learn a house and she would have had to also change schools so they made the big sacrifice of coming to live with her. there is some closeness but also some resentment because her aunt is a very helicopter type and this bothers Parker a lot of times but I guess it also shows that her aunts worried about her and cares about her.
I love the focus on friendship in this one. Parker has been friends with Sarah for years and years and I love how much they Sarah really just sticks by her side and how much they can talk to each other and how Sarah has learn the ins and outs of being a best friends with a person that is blind. the two girls really complement each other and are opposites in some way. Parker is really strong and she has no problem speaking her mind and sometimes it comes across as pretty bitchy to be honest. she also meets Moll who totally gets her from the start and we get to see a new friendship blooming and that's really cool to me.
Parker is a runner and then presents its own challenges. up until about a quarter of the way through the book she just runs on her own and has memorized the certain field so that she can just run and be free. But the coach of the track team notices was her and wants her to be a part of the team. running on the track presents a lot of challenges but Parker after being scared of it and resenting it for a little bit but ultimately she decides she wants to try it. I was proud of her for wanting to try but we also realize a lot about Parker in them that she really is flippant about her safety at times and she was just literally running blindly like a person possessed and we get to see a lot of character growth that's because she realizes that she needs to take some responsibility for her safety even though she accepts that something could happen to her as a result of joining the team or as a result of trying to be independent.
The romance and this one is interesting there's kind of a love triangle but no not really because there is a relationship that she was in and she believed that that person broke one of her most important rule: not to deceive her. it really hurt her but we see through the book that she realizes that she made a lot of assumptions and that she was a bit hasty and judgmental about it. I think it was sweet how much that he tried to get her to see his point of view and all the little things that he did for her and I like that it wasn't easy for them that we don't get a complete HEA with them but we do have this hope and these feelings that both of them has to decide what they want to do with.
Bottom Line: worth the read, emotional with a sarcastic, blunt and strong main character.
My question to you, my lovely readers:
what would you miss most if you lost your vision?