Thursday, September 4, 2014

Girl Nevermore by R. A. Desilets a review by Brandi Breathes Books

Girl Nevermore by R. A. Desilets

Last week, Cooper Mesa was a quiet, studious bookworm.
This week, she feels unworthy of love or forgiveness.
When her twin sister, Kayla, tries to commit suicide, Cooper blames herself. If she had only paid more attention...
Desperate to understand her sister's decision, Cooper starts down a dark path, discovering her own inner turmoil. Losing herself was easy, but finding a reason to live is becoming impossible.


Publishes in US: September 8th 2014
Genre: Dark ya contemp
Source: author for honest review
Series? No

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TRIGGERS: suicide attempt, pills, depression


    Jaclyn from JC Book Haven sent Ms Desilets my way because she said it would be right up my alley, and I was drawn in even from the synopsis. I am into the dark and gritty. I deal with severe depression myself and I find a solace in books like this because even if it is fictional character, they know how the mind works when the depression is so dark. 

    We have the book from Cooper's eyes, the one who attempted suicide and is dealing with surviving. Instead we are with Cooper, her sister. Cooper was easy to like because she is a reader and she cares for others. I think that she had a bunch of emotions that are so true to life when something tragic like that happens. She questioned if she could have stopped it, wondered if she should have known, gets mad at Kayla and feels so much rage and confusion and sadness.  

    Cooper does find Kayla's diary, and in that way we can see the life events and what caused her to feel so dark. It is almost intrusive as a reader to read her pain, but luckily we have that window wide open to go through in fictional books. 

    The romance in this one is sweet, and it started off as just friends, Cooper calling Logan when she couldn't think of anyone else or deal with having to explain what happened. I liked how patient he was and how he really seemed to understand what Cooper was saying even when words weren't really enough. 

    Cooper's feelings get pretty dark in this one too. She struggles with guilt and anger, and she takes in out on her mom, and once she knows Kayla is on the road to recovery, she isn't really able to talk to her/ She keeps a lot inside and it comes out looking like she's mean to her mom, putting Kayla at a distance, and not caring about her physical or emotional state, just her search for answers. 

    There is a teacher in here, the one who realized that Kayla was in trouble and probably the reason that she lived acting so quickly. He is there for Cooper and with other staff, they try to help her work through her feelings. She is reading the Raven and sees Kayla as the raven, bringing the questions that only seem to have negative answers. Cooper working through this and figuring out what makes life worth living so you can get through the negative nevermores of life. 

    My only complaint is that it is a bit repetitive when she gets into the anger part of grief. I totally understand that is a step of grieving, and one that is often overlooked and instead favor the crying and the sad pain. 

    This was my kind of book, so thanks for the rec Jaclyn. 

Bottom Line: Emotional look at a twin sister whose other half tries to kill herself. Emotional, real, angry with a sweet romance to lighten it up.

My question to you, my lovely readers:
Have you ever totally missed a big change in someone in your family or friends?


  1. Oh i'm super glad this one completely worked for you! While I don't deal with severe despression i'm glad you find solace is books that deal with the issue in an effective manner and very realistically. I'd love to give this book a shot just because you said you enjoyed the potrayal! Great review!

  2. Sounds like a tough emotional one for me, so I wouldn't be able to deal with it I think. Nope, not really. Though, there's a big difference to having it and noticing it, it shouldn't be that hard to spot, but sometimes It really is.

  3. Friends to romance is my favorite thing, really. This seems to be a very emotional read so I'll keep it in mind for when I feel like reading somehting along those lines.
    Lovely review.

  4. This sounds like an emotional and impactful read that will hopefully teach teens to watch for suicide signs. I am glad there is a light, sweet romance to lighten it up.

  5. Whoa, this sounds like quite the emotional ride with lots of factors in it which make it such a good read. I feel like there are many times like that because my close family live in one country but all my extended in another - which means I miss out on a lot of things in their lives. I just take comfort knowing that we do visit every year. Great review, this looks like a good book. I hope your surgery goes well!

  6. I think I would have liked it to be just..more

  7. This definitely sounds like an emotional read! Glad you enjoyed it overall, even if it was a bit repetitive. Hope you're feeling better after your surgery!

  8. It sounds really intense. I didn't know this one but I can understand why you were intrigued.

  9. I agree with Melliane, INTENSE and really affecting. I expect some annoyance but I guess that comes with the territory of the theme. We all grieve differently, I hate it when people act out, but different strokes.

  10. This one definitely sounds like a very deep, emotionally intense read. I am intrigued by this one.

    Great review!

  11. This does seem dark and intense. I read a story that was kind of similar a few years ago, Don't Fear the Reaper. It's a paranormal YA, and I loved it.
    So glad you found solace in the story!

  12. I couldn't begin to imagine the kind of guilt that I would have if my twin committed suicide. You would have to tear yourself apart wondering if there was anything you could have done. I'm so glad that you enjoyed it! Fantastic review :D and good luck with the surgery (or have you already had it?) Jaclyn @ JC's Book Haven.

  13. This sounds pretty good. It can be hard for me to read darker books but it sounds like this has some lighter stuff to make it easier.

  14. I am so glad you enjoyed this Brandi, this would depress me. A co-workers 16 year old son just committed suicide last weekend and in a horrific way.

  15. I loved this book too. I'm still processing it and I read it last week. I totally understood Cooper's anger. She dove right into the heartache especially with her obsessive reading of The Raven. I would have gone the opposite route and gone for escapism and freezing out my emotions. I loved the romance in this one. Great review, Brandi!

  16. This sounds pretty intense Brandi, and I know how much you enjoy them. A shame you found it a little repetitive, but overall sounds great.

    Naomi @ Nomi’s Paranormal Palace

  17. WOW, yeah, not sure if this would be for me - I have trouble reading about suicide, but I will keep it in mind if I want to try a book that is dark and gritty. And the fact that there are twin-sisters actually does appeal to me a lot.
    I hope your surgery went well, Brandi! And that you're feeling better, and getting back into shape quickly.

    Lexxie @ (un)Conventional Bookviews


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